"Fast forward three years, and no medical treatments, no drugs, no shots, no nothing and I turned out pregnant with Sadie and yeah, it was a miracle, but also the miracle I never asked for," Natalie confesses. An Unexpected Miracle and Unbelievable Guilt She soon discovered a manageable rhythm between her family and career, and by the time the twins were three, she was satisfied and content with a balancing act she could comfortably navigate. With a burgeoning music career, a loving husband and two happy, healthy twin girls, Natalie had everything she could ever ask for. However, when the elated mother-to-be went to the doctor for her first ultrasound, she was given another unexpected surprise-two heartbeats.īella and Gracie were the long-awaited miracles for which they had fervently prayed.
Seventy-six shots later, Natalie turned up pregnant. After prayerful consideration, they decided to pursue fertility treatments. Pursuing Fertility Treatmentįive years into marriage, the thought of not having children was a test of the couple's faith. The two became friends, eventually started dating, and the rest is history.
"It took him a lot longer to figure out that he loved me but after the day I met him, I called my parents and said, ‘I met this guy, and if he asked me to marry him tomorrow, I would say, yes,'" Natalie candidly shares, laughing. Someone recommended Bernie, and Natalie hired him. The Seattle native was showcasing her music for labels and needed a piano player. The two originally met after Natalie moved to Nashville in search of a record deal. Natalie and her husband-award-winning songwriter and producer Bernie Herms-who she will celebrate 16 years of marriage with in August, had waited more than five years before entertaining the idea of starting a family since they both had demanding careers that required extensive travel. "A song I thought I would always sing to encourage somebody else was actually a lifeline for me that night," Natalie said. This is not going to be our story."Ī few hours later, Natalie took the stage with Wynona Judd, singing a song they had recorded together about how God brings everything together for good, just as her personal dream of bearing children began to crumble. "I just remember my head started to spin, and I thought, There's no way. It was the doctor's office saying, ‘Hey, we have all of your results back, and you guys have less than a one percent chance of conceiving a child,'" Natalie said. "Here I was about to go do this dreamy event, and my phone rang. "Less Than One Percent Chance of Conceiving. For five-time GMA Female Vocalist of the Year, Natalie Grant, it marked the beginning of an unexpected nightmare. I trust YOU, Jesus.For most musicians, singing at Nashville's famed Ryman Auditorium with one of your musical heroes is a bucket list kind of event. If you choose for my future husband to join me right away on that adventure, thank you. I desire to be on the adventure with YOU. I know Lord, YOU won't give me everything I want, but I am thankful that you give me everything I need.Lord, I ask you to be the guide of my life. Speak to my mind and heart when I want things I can't have or when my longings have me longing.
Jesus, I am thankful that you'll be with me as I wait.In the world that is shouting at me, to want more, more. When I am not happy about the waiting, I'll turn to you to help me be content. I know you love me completely.If your perfect plan means waiting, then I accept that. Yet I know Lord, that your plan is perfect. I have to admit I am not very good at waiting, and I tend to get impatient. Dear Lord-I have to admit, I would like to imagine meeting my future husband, sooner rather than later.